unveilingthebeautywithin

Hmm what can i say??  I have just been very very bad.  I broke my foot back in April and ever since i have stopped working out and started eating whatever i want!!!  I weigh every few days to make sure im not screwing myself.  I have been averaging about 174 to 172.  I am happy that i havent gained much back but am getting REALLY sick of myself again.  I have started a new job at a preschool working with 2 year olds and am exhsausted.. i think i am getting more used to the stress and exhaustion and am ready to work on myself again.  I have been putting it off for way to long. :o( My husband has switched from the Marine Corps to the Army and will be leaving for his new job training early next year.  He has been working so hard on his running in the morning (he is getting up at 4:45am everyday), then going to the gym 3 times a week to do abs and upper body, and he is starting to count his calories.  I am very impressed and it is making me feel incredibly guilty!!!  He doesent need to lose much weight and mostly just wants to get back into shape.  So far today i have had 1515 calories and am DYING to eat more!!!  I WILL resist.  This is always the hardest part for me.. starting over and feeling hungry a lot. :oP No fun.. but no pain no gain. 

 Things i am looking to gain:

confidence

contentment

more energy

to look good in shorts

to look good in a batheing suit

to look good with nothing on. LOL!

to feel beautiful again

to be in better shape before i have another baby

Well.. here i go again.  No it’s not fun, but i got myself here, and am not giving up until i get myself out.  Noone is at fault but me but i like myself enough to try hard at getting the real me back.  Someone who is just happier and doesent worry and beat myself up about what i have done to get here.  Wish me luck! :o)