UGH! Why can’t i fully commit???

I just can’t seem to get back on track.  I WANT it but i guess i don’t want it bad enough right now.  SO frusterating because i know i can do it.  I lost 36 pounds and i only want to lose about another 25-30.  I use food as comfort, a drug, my stress reliver.  I am very aware of it but still can’t seem to take control and just stop and start up my routine again.  I feel very lazy and beat myself up about it but still wont get my butt off the couch and workout!!!  Today i forced myself to do something and that something turned into 10 minutes on the treadmill half walking half jogging at a 5% incline.  I realize i am just hurting myself here and that i am in control of if i do it or not.  I just feel tired and don’t feel like doing anything.  Just GREAT especially when i want to lose weight.  :o( UGH!!!!  So tonight instead of snacking (which i almost always do) while watching tv i am chewing extra gum and absolutely not letting myself eat another bite.  My baby steps to success are the tiniest baby steps ive ever seen.  Is half trying tonight better then not trying at all?  That’s all im giving myself right now and it’s just sad.  I need to like me again and believe that i am worth it again!!!

6 Comments so far

  1. beckyboo @ July 9th, 2009

    Yes, they are ! ONce u get settled in and life gets into a normal, u will be back in the game !

  2. WonderWoman @ July 10th, 2009

    Omg, the same is with me! I know what I need to do, I know what it takes but it can be so damn hard. Maybe get organized if you aren’t already. Make a plan. Literally a plan to hang on the wall with daily goals and mark them off every time you accomplish them. Maybe seeing something daily will help you want to accomplish that goal so you can mark it off as completed. Good luck to you.

  3. easybreezy @ July 10th, 2009

    As long as your trying it counts towards something!

    When you go to workout give it %110 because if you don’t your only cheating yourself. I think of that everytime I have to force myself to workout (which is everyday) I wish we could all LOVE working out, but we don’t so as long as we try and put forth the effort that’s what will get us to where we need to be even if it takes a while.

    You will get back on track I know it takes time I’ve been there, but stay focused and strong :]

  4. Maria @ July 10th, 2009

    Hey, haven’t seen a blog from you in a while. But yes even small changes will definitely help. You will get there again, just keep trying to get the motivation back…..good luck :)

  5. grapeape @ July 10th, 2009

    I think half trying is better than not trying at all and that half trying will soon lead to kicking ass!!!

  6. meltingaway @ July 13th, 2009

    Any effort is better than none. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Continue the tiny baby steps, even those will get you where you are going. You can do it!!

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