unveilingthebeautywithin

I am still pretty confined to the house and am eating out of boredom and clausterphobia.  The last two days i have done really well until about 3pm.  Then it’s like i just don’t stop eating for the rest of the night.  Well, today i am NOT going to do that.  So far i am at 650 calories and i have eaten lunch.  Joey is taking me to the gym tonight to get in an upper body workout and he will probably kill me.  He is really good at pushing me.. he would make a good personal trainer.  I havent had a decent workout in weeks.  Dang broken foot.  Grr.  I can’t wait to drive again, walk again, run again.  Hopefully i can do the driving and walking within the next month. 

 Well i am back from Austin where my sister’s wedding was this last weekend.  Eating was off the charts bad.  I will be weighing in Friday to see if i gained.  Last weeks weigh in i maintained at 169!  I was very happy about that considering my broken foot.  Speaking of my foot thank you for everyone asking how i am doing and healing.  I am doing pretty good.  I can put pressure on it without the boot.  I can’t bend my foot yet but can walk very slowly and carefully.  I go to the Orthopaedist two weeks from today to get x-rays to see if it’s healing right.  If everything looks good i will be allowed to wear regular shoes whenever it feels comfortable enough.  I am dying to drive again and start walking to burn some calories!

Here are a few picture’s from my trip!  My profile picture is also from Austin but figured i didnt need to put it in this blog. 

Me and hubby

All my sisters and brothers.  This is pretty typical of us.  We are all insane.  Haha!

All of us again at the wedding

Calorie day that is.  Finished at about 1500 which was 100 over what i wanted.  Tomorrow is a new day and i can make it into whatever i want!

That’s the only way to do it.  Noone can save you but yourself.  Well, yesterday i did pretty good other then the brownie i ate.   Haha none of that today!!!  I am going out of town in 2 days and am really going to have to watch it.  Eating out almost every meal sucks.  My stress levels on this trip should be ok so i wont be pigging out.  We are leaving our son with my in-laws because we are only going to be there 2 whole days and then 2 days of driving 8 hours.  Yuck.. but because it will just be the two of us things should go pretty smoothly!  I am looking forward to time with just hubby.  We don’t get to go out a lot by ourselves.  My goal for this month was to get to 165.  I am still stuck at 169 but am hoping for at least one pound or even a maintain this week.  We will see!!

Yep that’s what i am.. I have done nothing but sit on my butt since i broke my foot and have been struggling with not over eating.  I am SO bored.. i can’t drive and have to rely on hubby to take me anywhere i need to go.  I am very aware of what i am doing.  That is the first step right?  Realizing you have a problem and now i just need to take the next step and just STOP!  It was almost better when i couldnt get downstairs to the kitchen because i couldnt eat very much.  Now i can walk up and down ok with my boot on and i have been snacking like crazy.  I am just aggravated about another broken bone, not being able to go anywhere, not being able to work, and the list goes on.  I eat to fill the void.  I have always been like this but usually it is stress or my hubby is away at training or in Iraq.  Grr..  i HAVE to stop.  I don’t want to ruin everything.

I leave for Austin Thursday.  My baby sister is getting married. :o( Here is a picture of us at her wedding shower from last Saturday.

Well the first few days of having a broken foot didnt go so well.  We ate pizza 3 nights in a row.  I am careful but obviously it’s still loaded with calories and very unhealthy.  My hubby went to get groceries last night and i made him get some real but easy dinners!  Hopefully the rest of this week will go better.  One of those pizza nights i ate 6 sugar cookies and once i figured out the calories i just about died!  I really shouldnt have been that surprised though.. i think it was 900 calories!!  Today i havent even had to use the crutches at all!  If im really careful and slow just the boot is support enough.  This break will heal 10 times faster then my ankle break which i am thankful for.  No Physical Therapy either!!  I hope all my buddies are still hanging in there because i barely am.  Ill be back later to try and catch up on some blogs!

I broke my foot yesterday.  I was in a movie theatre walking down the stairs and once i got to the floor my first step my bone just broke and i collapsed.  I didnt do ANYTHING!  I have gone over it in my head a million times.  I was walking slow, holding onto the rail, and i dont think i landed on it wrong.  It just snapped.  I am an old fragile woman now.  The pain is bad but not as bad as my broken ankle.  When i broke my ankle i knew exactly what i had done to break it.  I felt the twist.  This time it twisted after it broke.  Just like older people the bones break then they fall.  It wasnt the fall that made the bone break.  I am now taking Calcuim twice a day.  I don’t really eat any dairy especially while counting calories.  I don’t like milk or a lot of other dairy products but i never thought it would catch up with me at 24.  Now i just have to figure out how to take care of a 2 year old and we live upstairs.

Both yesterday and today i weighed in at 169!  The thing is that TOM showed up this morning!  I am SO excited hoping that once this is over with ill have lost more weight!!!  YAYY!!!  The 160’s feel GREAT!

Well.. my butt and legs fit fine.  It’s the spare tire im carrying around my waist.  It is ok in this picture but the second i sit down everything falls out!!  I probably wont wear them until i lose a little more around my waist!!!  YAYYY for size 10!!!! :oD

It’s about dang time!  Haha.  WHOO HOOOO!!!! :oD :oD