unveilingthebeautywithin

I hit my monthly goal today and i am 1 away from my mini goal and the 60’s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 I am have been sticking with lower calories then before (1400-1500).  I’m hungry and have never thought you should ignore hunger.  But…. i lost 2 pounds this week doing it.  I don’t want to cause harm to my body by starving it but maybe i just need to shrink my stomach??

So after about 3-4 days of eating whatever the heck i want (in moderation) i am back to counting calories and eating less then i was before.  I am sticking closer to 1400 then 1600.  I have lost 1 pound this week!!!!  OMG i can’t believe i am 2 away from the 60’s!!  WHOO HOOOO!!! :oD :oD  Yesterday i tried out toning tables at one of the Spa’s i work at.  It is free, and it was there, so i tried it!  Haha they felt really wierd but some of them really worked me out!  My ankle that i broke last August has really been hurting lately so i have been laying off the running.  At least i did get some sort of workout yesterday on the toning tables! 

I have been cleaning out my closet like crazy.  Ill get dressed then go look in the mirror and what im wearing is falling off of me.  I have boxed up all my XL and L, size 16 and 14!!  I am very much a size 12 going on 10 and definetly a Medium!  Everytime i try clothes on i grab a M and L sure that the M won’t fit but it always does!!!!!!!!!  YAY!!  It is sad though that some of my cute dresses and shirts don’t fit anymore.

My goal for this month is to be 170 by April 1st!  1 pound away!!!

My little cutie wearing Daddy’s cover!

I am putting it all out there.. I MAJORLY cheated today!  I am so drained and really just needed to stop worrying and obsessing about EVERYTHING.  This is my nature.. So today after i dropped my son off at Grandma’s for the day i decided that i was going to do whatever i wanted including food.  For lunch i went to Panera and got the Potato Soup in a bread bowl, dinner i had like zero time to eat so i went to QT and got a pepperjack taquito, chips, and pb m&ms.  YEP talk about BAD!!!  Haha i don’t feel guilty and i will not beat myself up about this.  It was so nice and refreshing to just eat and not think so freaking much about it.  I really needed today and it ended way to soon.  Straight back to work tomorrow. :o/ I am feeling much better and am going to change my routine and make new rules.  I KNOW that i can do this, i just have to figure it out again.  I did it before i can do it again!  I know this fat is not super glued to my body and it WILL come off.

I MAINTAINED!!!  I am sticking to my calories, working out, and the scale just won’t budge.  My stress level is through the roof.. i am working a lot and really tired.  Not really sleeping well either.  I am not trying to make excuses but i just wonder if any of this is affecting my weightloss.  I really don’t know what i am doing wrong here. :o(  Any suggestions are welcome.  On day’s i don’t workout i eat 1400-1600 calories.  On workout days i eat around 1800.  I am doing a lot of cardio and still sticking with my running.  I am not getting as many workouts in as i should.  2-3 times a week when i would like it to be 3-4.

I am reaalllyy hoping to at least hit 171 tomorrow.  Fingers crossed.  I would like to hit 170 or 169 by the end of this month!!

I have been doing really good with calories!  I need to get more workouts in though.  I am always concerned with stress having an opposite affect on your body.. i wish i knew a way to kick that in the butt.  I’m hoping to at least hit 171 this week!!

 p.s.check out my new pics in my profile pics!

WHOO HOOO 172!!!!  I am SO close to hitting the 160’s!!!  I’m hoping sometime in the next 2 weeks i can get there!  YAYYYY!!!!

I am as determined as ever!  I have gotten a workout 3 days this week already.  Still working on my running.. Monday i walked 1 minute, jogged 2.  I think that was a little to much for me so today i walked 2, jogged 2, etc.  That seemed to go over a little better!!  I am just hoping for a really good loss this week!!  I’m not giving in to anything or giving up! 

I am still doing really good!  I’m sticking to my calories and working out.  I am going up and down with my calories.  I seem to get better results that way!  1400, 1600, 1400, 1700, etc.  I eat a little more the days i work out!  I never really know how much more i can eat on my workout days and still be safe.  Today i am battleing with myself because i don’t want to go to the gym.  I have been sick (again) with all this allergy junk and going to the gym yesterday made me feel more terrible.  Hmm i may just do a workout at home. 

Ohhh yeah.  Did i mention that i have lost 2 pounds this week???????!!!!!!!!!!  172!!!!!!!!!