unveilingthebeautywithin

WHOOO HOOOOOOO I am officially in the 180’s!!!  I am very excited and proud of myself!!  I can’t wait to see what i can accomplish once i can work out more!  My Physical Therapist said i can continue walking (havent been for a week though because i have been sick) and slowly start jogging in the middle of October!  I know 9 pounds to most people might not be much.. but i think im actually more excited about hitting the 180’s then the amount i have lost really.  I have been wanting to get back to where i was before i got pregnant and now i am only 4 pounds away!

I have been sick with all kinds of head stuff for the last week.  I hadent weighed myself in a few days and when i got on the scale today i was down 2 more pounds!  YAYYY  I am almost in the 180’s!!  A few years ago when i was about 182 i swore to myself that i would NEVER go past 190 ever unless i got pregnant.  Well, i got pregnant and have been over that 190 mark for 2 years now.  I am so ready to be back in the 180’s and vow once again that i will never go back unless i get pregnant.  The next time im pregnant im not going to gain 50 pounds though.  I had a hard pregnancy and during the middle of it found out my husband was going to leave for Iraq almost immediately after i gave birth, and we had to move out of our townhouse in with my parnets because i didnt want to live alone with a newborn.  I was heartbroken.  I am a stress/worry eater.  I think i was eating for 3 during that time.  I have never gone through something so difficult but hope in the future when i am faced with something that im having a  hard time dealing with i can handle it better.. and not eat myself to death.

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I can dream can’t I?!  Hopefully someday i can look like that!

I LOVE food!  I love it but i hate that it makes me fat.. I have such strong jealousy that my husband can eat whatever he wants and still looks great.  He eats so much more food than i do and he is still thin.  I can keep on wishing and wishing that i were one of those people, but i know it’s not going to change anything.  I have a problem of living to eat instead of eating to live.  I need to keep in mind that i have the rest of my life to eat not just TODAY!  My eating is getting back on track, but i need to up my walking a little.  My ankle has been feeling stiff because i had such a hard workout at Physical Therapy on Monday so i didnt walk at all yesterday.  I need to get my butt out of this chair and just GO!  I know my son loves it anyways!  So it’s a win, win.

I hope everyones week is going well!!   

Life has been kicking our butt lately.. we have been waiting, and waiting for Joey’s work to hire him on from being a temp.  We are starting to get desperate.. on top of that Joey’s car breaks down on him several times to and from work everyday.  We have a nice car that I drive so i am thankful for that, but now we are about to be a one car family.  The military has us covered with health insurance until the middle of October, so i am hoping that his job will FINALLY hire him on so we will have that insurance.  I have been praying, and praying, and hoping, and trying to keep faith.  I know that God is taking care of us and He will provide everything we need.  I just have a problem with excessive worrying. :o/  Well the part about weight loss is that i am a STRESS EATER!  I just want to eat a dozen donuts and an entire pizza.  I have already been overeating this last week.. and im afraid that i have gained back a few pounds.

Good News:

Today at Physical Therapy my Therapist kept testing me and how strong i was… well by the time i left i had been skipping sideways kindof like playing defense in basketball (pretty fast i might add!), and JOGGING on the treadmill!!!!!  WHOOPIE!!!  He put me on the treadmill and said we might try slow jogging.  I walked fast for 2 minutes, jogged for 2 minutes, then walked another 2 minutes without a brace!!!!!  YAYYY!!!  I was already trying to get back into walking twice a day while pushing my son in a jogging stroller.. even though im still not walking as quick as i used to, im still burning some calories.  The weather here has been incredible so it has actually been very nice, non workoutie (haha i highly doubt that is a word) walks.  My Therapist just can’t believe how quickly i am healing.  When i started therapy the beginning of this month i could barely walk on my foot without my boot.  Now i am walking around normal.  There is even another therapist thats always there that came up to me right before i left and told me he was very impressed on my progress!  I am pretty impressed and surprised myself!  Very excited though to be getting back into working out!  I am being careful and taking it slow.. i can only jog at therapy, and walk on smooth surfaces.

Please pray for me and my family that we can make it through this rough patch, and that i won’t get so down about it and keep faith.   

This weekend has been soo crazy so my eating habits have been TERRIBLE!!  My sister was in town, i went to the American Idol Concert last night, so i have been going out to eat a lot and i always eat bad when i eat out.  I actually got to walk today for the first time since i broke my ankle!  The weather has been so nice here so i went on a walk this morning with my hubby, and our son, and went again tonight!  I can tell i am getting strong and am getting excited that i am able to start some exercise.  I have been getting really anxious lately about losing this weight!  I just want to get in a hurry, which of course get’s me nowhere.  I just have to be patient!

I hope everyone has a good week!!!

..and a ton more to go.  There were several times this week i was in a hurry and ate to fast.. i really need to make sure that i make more time for eating.  Ohh well.. i was hoping i would have lost one more pound but it’s ok.  This is a new day and i can turn things around!!

9-11 

Today is a reminder of why exactly my husband and so many other men and women have had to leave their families.  I am so thankful that we live in a FREE COUNTRY and for all our military who are away from their families insuring that we are safe.  THANK YOU!

Both of my doctors appointments went well today!  I still don’t know how long it will be until i can start walking though.  Weigh in tomorrow!!!  Hope everyones week is going well!  

Kids are hilarious! :oD 

1) NUDITY
I was driving with my three young children one warm summer evening when a woman in the
convertible ahead of us stood up and waved.
She was stark naked! As I was reeling from the shock, I heard my 5-year-old shout from the back seat, ‘Mom, that lady isn’t wearing a seat belt!’2) OPINIONS
On the first day of school, a first-grader handed his teacher a note from his mother.
The
note read, ‘The opinions expressed by this child are not necessarily those of his parents.
‘3) KETCH UP
A woman was trying hard to get the ketchup out of the jar. During her struggle the phone rang so she asked her 4-year-old daughter to answer the phone. ‘Mommy can’t come to the phone to talk to you right now. She’s hitting the bottle.
‘

4) MORE NUDITY
A little boy got lost at the YMCA and found himself in the women’s locker room. When he was spotted, the room burst into shrieks, with ladies grabbing towels and running for cover.
The little boy watched in amazement and then asked, ‘What’s the matter, haven’t you ever seen a little boy before?’

5 ) POLICE # 1
While taking a routine vandalism report at an elementary school, I was interrupted by a little girl about 6 years old. Looking up and down at my uniform, she asked, ‘Are you a cop? Yes,’ I answered and continued writing the report. My mother said if I ever needed help I should ask the police. Is that right?’ ‘Yes, that’s right,’ I told her.
‘Well, then,’ she said as she extended her foot toward me, ‘would you please tie my shoe?’

6) POLICE #2
It was the end of the day when I parked my police van in front of the station. As I gathered my equipment, my K-9 partner, Jake, was barking, and I saw a little boy staring in at me. ‘Is that a dog you got back there?’ he asked. ‘It sure is,’ I replied. Puzzled, the boy looked at me and then towards the back of the van.
Finally he said, ‘What’d he do?’

7) ELDERLY
While working for an organization that delivers lunches to elderly shut-ins, I used to take my 4-year-old daughter on my afternoon rounds. She was unfailingly intrigued by the various appliances of old age, particularly the canes, walkers and wheelchairs. One day I found her staring at a pair of false teeth soaking in a glass.
As I braced myself for the inevitable
barrage of questions, she merely turned and whispered, ‘The tooth fairy will never believe this!’

DRESS-UP
A little girl was watching her parents dress for a party. When she saw her dad donning his tuxedo, she warned, ‘Daddy, you shouldn’t wear that suit.’ ‘And why not, darling?’ ‘You know that it always gives you a headache the next morning.
‘

9) DEATH
While walking along the sidewalk in front of his church, our minister heard the intoning
of a prayer that nearly made his collar wilt. Apparently, his 5-year-old son and his playmates had found a dead robin. Feeling that proper burial should be performed, they had secured a small box and cotton batting, then dug a hole and made ready for the disposal of the deceased.

The minister’s son was chosen to say the appropriate prayers and with sonorous dignity intoned his version of what he thought his father always said: ‘Glory be unto the Father, and unto the Son, and into the hole he goes.
‘ (unto the Holy Ghost) (I want this line
used at my funeral!)

10) SCHOOL
A little girl had just finished her first week of school. ‘I’m just wasting my time,’ she said to her mother.
‘I can’t read, I can’t write, and they won’t let me talk!’

11) BIBLE
A little boy opened the big family Bible. He was fascinated as he fingered through the old pages. Suddenly, something fell out of the Bible. He picked up the object and looked at it. What he saw was an old leaf that had been pressed in between the pages. ‘Mama, look what I found,’ the boy called out.
‘What have you got there, dear?’ With astonishment in the young
boy’s voice, he answered, ‘I think it’s Adam’s underwear!’

NOW IF THIS DIDN’T BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY, GO BACK TO BED AND FORGET IT.

I have to go to Physical Therapy and the Orthopaedic doctor tomorrow.  I’m hoping it goes well.. i have been feeling very strong and am hoping to start walking in the next few weeks.  I hardly have to wear my boot anymore!  I did today running errands with Dillon because i didnt know if my foot would start hurting because of carrying him and i have to walk reeeealllyyy slooowww when i just have a shoe on.  I know i have lost a few more pounds so i am excited about weighing in on thursday!  I want to get down into the 80’s!!!  It’s been awhile since ive been there and waayy longer since i have been in the 70’s!  That i will be ecstatic about!  Hope everyone’s week is going well!!!

My sweet little Dillon!!

Yesterday i found out my sister is engaged to a guy that i don’t think deserves her.. not even a little bit. Right after i sorta found out (all i got was a picture of a ring on my cell phone) i felt like puking and then just started to cry. I want so badly for her to be happy, and I’m afraid that she will end up unhappy. I’m sure that when the two of them are together everything is perfect.. but the second she leaves his side, his jealousy comes out. He doesn’t trust her… period. My sister and I had been really close the last few years until she left for college. Soon after she left she started dating this guy and she has been so up and down and all over the place ever since. All i truly want for her is to be crazy in love, and insanely happy. I am scared that she won’t tell me if things are bad, or just deal with the hurt and move on until the next time he hurts her. It breaks my heart that she lets herself be treated that way, and that she doesn’t think enough of herself to be treated better.

The two of them will be here friday and he is going to ask my Dad if he can marry her.. I can only hope what the answer will be (well.. i actually know that my Dad is going to tell him to “get over it”).  Even then im afraid they would run off and never want to talk to any of us again.

I have a blog that i try and update a lot that i don’t think very many people read (http://jenniferschott.blogspot.com/).. I guess i just wanted to get it out there.  I was just feeling a little heartbroken and want to go eat a gallon of icecream. 

My sister Melissa and I